The Life I Want to Live....

The life I want to live is fun, easy going and has purpose. My life now is those things, on a small scale, I want more though, because I know it's available to me.

I can see myself lying on a hammock with my love, enjoying the sun and the breeze and having an easy, loving conversation with one another. There is no rush in this time, it seems to stand still. I can see our large backyard and lake that we live on. I have always found peace near water, and I feel blessed everytime I am able to look out the window and know that my dream is now reality.

Things in this life are very easy going. We have family over all the time and everyone gets along. There is never any jealousy or feelings of ill will here. My home is open and full of love and laughter.

We live life unrushed, we enjoy that luxury. My love and I both have no need for work. We don't have to bring in a paycheck because we have an abundance of funds available to us. We do not work, but we do give back, in our own ways.

I do Public Speaking and Charity work. I feel blessed everyday that I am able to do this. It is never a burden or something that overwhelms me in a negative way. I always have new ideas and am pleased that I have the funds to be able to try these new ideas that will help others make their life what they want it to be.

I love being able to introduce myself and asking how I can help knowing full well that however I am able to help I will. I love saying 'Hi, I am Micah. How can we help you?' I love running my Charity. I love helping the women we help. I do not feel the pride of 'look what I did' but I do feel the pride of knowing that through me God I was able to help women create the dreams they wanted. I love that I don't throw my ideas upon people. I help them to become their own dream. I'm healthy and find a thrilling happiness in every moment of my life, as if I am brand new to this world and open to every possiblilty imaginable.

I love the relationships I have in my life. Every relationship is pleasant and benefical. Commnication is easy flowing between everyone around me. My children are happy, caring, loving people. They learned early enough to not live within the limits of others and they both excel at whatever brings them pleasure, and I am thankful that they find pleasure in positive healthy habits.

My love is everything I could ask for, I know this because I asked for him. I asked for certain qualities in a partner, he has those and more! Everyday I thank God he is in my life. We have so much fun together! It's as if we are children in a funland. Every expeirence possible is on the table and we need only choose to have, and we do. We are different enough in personality to enjoy several different things. We are both trusting and respectful enough of the other to try things we wouldn't normally like because we know the other will find real pleasure in that expeirence. We both feel an extreme attraction to one another, there is no doubt about whether we are one anothers'. It's an amazing feeling and we both love the way that our connection feels.

Love and happiness flow around and through us. The lives of the ones we touch are better because they have known us and vise versa. We are aware of the grace we have recived in this life and we never take it for granted. We live a life of love and joy and laughter and peace, and I am thankful everyday.

Living Inspired,

Micah

Relationships

I wanted to put down what I believe a relationship should be. What I want in a relationship.

I want a partnership. I want to feel like a am just as important to the relationship as my partner is. I want a partner who values me, my opinion, my thoughts, ideas and feelings. I want a partner who sees who I am and likes me just the way I am. I want a partner who doesn't think I need to be fixed or changed or altered, someone who sees the beauty I posses, even when I can't see it for myself.
I want be with someone who wants to know me, how I tick and why I feel the way I feel. I want someone who wants to be with me, not because they think they can save me, or that they have to. I want them to be with me because they think I am amazing and want to be on this journey through life with me, not someone to guide me but someone who wants to walk by my side.
I want a person who feels better when I'm around, who finds joy in my presence.

I want to be with someone who does not remind me of all they do for me but instead reminds me of all we can do together. I want to be with someone who sees me as their equal, who is willing to pick me up when I am down, because they know without a doubt, that I can and will do that for them.
I want to be with someone who sees the strength and frailness inside of me and loves both sides. I want to be with someone who will comfort me when I cry and push me to do things I don't think I'm capable of doing, because they know I can. I want a friend, a true friend, one who will stand by me right or wrong, good or bad.

I want a connection. I want love. I want the happiness and peace and strength that come from knowing your have a teammate in this world. The person who is not proud, who does not think they are better than me. A person who does not feel the need to remind me of everything they have done for me.

I want someone to know me, to really know me, to want to know me.

I watch a lot of TV shows like, Ghost Whisperer and Medium, and other shows where the woman is the main character. She is always a little messed up, she's always getting into trouble but she is powerful and strong. My favorite part of the shows, beside the clothes ;), are the husbands. Those women would not be half as powerful and capable if they did not have that person behind them cheering them on, understanding them and loving them for exactly who they are. I know it's just a TV show but I want that love. I want that partner. I want the one who loves me because I am me.

I know it is possible. I know love like that can exist, and I think maybe someday it could exist for me. So I am not going to give up. I am not going to settle. I know that I can love, I know when I love I love strong. I know someone, someday is bound to see that in me. So I will wait. I will work on the things I can work on. I will not accept that I must be with someone who looks at me more as a burden than a partner. I would rather go through this life by myself then with someone who cannot see the things I bring to the partnership, because that is not a partnership.

I want love, I want a connection and I know someday I will find it. And, when I do, I will cherish it always.