The movie The 5th Element is great. I love Bruce Willis and Milla Jovovich and I loved the story line. One person who could save us all and all she needed to be most powerful was to receive love. Think about it, if all of us had that power. If each of us were able to shine a beam of light from inside us that would save the world.
What if the idea of that story were true? What if by being true to our hearts and who we are. By holding on to the good of life, the love and the happiness we could also shine the light of peace and God into the world. What if more than one of us did that? What if the majority or, the entire population, allowed the love of the Universe to shine through them?
I think we would find peace. I think we would find happiness. I believe that if we were to stop judging others for not being like us, and focused on being ourselves we could find that power. We could tap into it and save the world!
I believe living from the outside in we block that power. We plug our light with junk. If were were to let go of the junk, the judgements we hold and the need to always be better than an other, we could clear that passage and we could allow our own light to shine through us.
I believe we can save the world. We have all the elements we need here. We could be the 5th Element :)
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
How I feel Right Now :)
Right Now...... I feel free! I feel strong. I feel at peace. I feel happy anticipation of the new things to come in my life. :)
I have been listening to the songs I've added to this page. They really speak where I am, what I think. I love that music can do that for me. I've been reading. I've been accepting who I am right now. It feels good! Way better than when I disliked everything about myself. Duh! Of course I know the words make sense but the execution can be difficult:) I spent so many years being what I thought people wanted me to be. I have always hid who I truly am. It's time for that to end.
How am I suppose to find true love with someone who loves me if I never admit to who I am, what I like and where I am going in my life? I have to be honest, with everyone, but most importantly with myself. Instead of waiting until I'm thin or rich or perfect before showing myself and my heart is not the way to go.
What happens to people who live their life in the dark?
They eventually get so used to the dark that sunshine actually is painful to their eyes. That's how I have become, a hermit. I lived in the 'When I get _________ I will do this and then everything will be wonderful and I'll be happy' cave. The thing is I got so used to the dark that finding that light/sunshine/love for myself and others I used to want died away. The darkness of hiding within myself, the not believing myself worthy of happiness now became comfortable. I forgot the light, the need for the light and the feeling of joy the lights provides. I forgot that we are meant to be in the light, not hidden in the darkness.
I am happily begining to remember. I am starting to see that maybe, just maybe, I can have everything I want. Maybe I can find my dream. I'm beginning to realize that I should appreciate what I have in this moment. Where I am in this moment and cherish every moment. I have hidden in journals, only able to write my feelings, never able to speak the truth. I was afraid. I was afraid of rejection so I rejected. I was afraid of not being liked, of being mediocre and what happened to me? I became mediocre, I became not enough and I chose a life where everyday I was rejected. I didn't need anyone to abuse me, I was terrific at abusing myself, the best part about that is no one can see the scars. No one could see the blows I had afflicted upon my own soul. Again I hid myself. I have punished myself enough for 10 lives, it's time to move on.
It's time to be honest with myself, my heart and the ones I love. It is terrifying to put myself out there! I am now giving outside sources a say in my life. Instead of deciding for people, assuming their impending rejection I am actually opening up. The good thing is if I do end up receiving rejection I know that I will still feel good. I trusted, I put faith and my heart in an others hand. I know that by allowing my true feelings to the light, I am out of the cave!
Damn the Man, Save the Empire!!!!! ;)
Living Inspired,
Micah
I have been listening to the songs I've added to this page. They really speak where I am, what I think. I love that music can do that for me. I've been reading. I've been accepting who I am right now. It feels good! Way better than when I disliked everything about myself. Duh! Of course I know the words make sense but the execution can be difficult:) I spent so many years being what I thought people wanted me to be. I have always hid who I truly am. It's time for that to end.
How am I suppose to find true love with someone who loves me if I never admit to who I am, what I like and where I am going in my life? I have to be honest, with everyone, but most importantly with myself. Instead of waiting until I'm thin or rich or perfect before showing myself and my heart is not the way to go.
What happens to people who live their life in the dark?
They eventually get so used to the dark that sunshine actually is painful to their eyes. That's how I have become, a hermit. I lived in the 'When I get _________ I will do this and then everything will be wonderful and I'll be happy' cave. The thing is I got so used to the dark that finding that light/sunshine/love for myself and others I used to want died away. The darkness of hiding within myself, the not believing myself worthy of happiness now became comfortable. I forgot the light, the need for the light and the feeling of joy the lights provides. I forgot that we are meant to be in the light, not hidden in the darkness.
I am happily begining to remember. I am starting to see that maybe, just maybe, I can have everything I want. Maybe I can find my dream. I'm beginning to realize that I should appreciate what I have in this moment. Where I am in this moment and cherish every moment. I have hidden in journals, only able to write my feelings, never able to speak the truth. I was afraid. I was afraid of rejection so I rejected. I was afraid of not being liked, of being mediocre and what happened to me? I became mediocre, I became not enough and I chose a life where everyday I was rejected. I didn't need anyone to abuse me, I was terrific at abusing myself, the best part about that is no one can see the scars. No one could see the blows I had afflicted upon my own soul. Again I hid myself. I have punished myself enough for 10 lives, it's time to move on.
It's time to be honest with myself, my heart and the ones I love. It is terrifying to put myself out there! I am now giving outside sources a say in my life. Instead of deciding for people, assuming their impending rejection I am actually opening up. The good thing is if I do end up receiving rejection I know that I will still feel good. I trusted, I put faith and my heart in an others hand. I know that by allowing my true feelings to the light, I am out of the cave!
Damn the Man, Save the Empire!!!!! ;)
Living Inspired,
Micah
Forgive
Have you ever put it all out there? Have you ever laid down your ego and said what was truly in your heart? Have you ever let down your guard and shown yourself fully to another?
Why do we hide within ourselves? This world we live in is meant to be lived, in my opinion, from the inside out. A ton of us seem to live from the outside in. We take the ideas, perceptions, pain, rejection we receive in the outside world and we bring it inside of ourselves. We allow the world to determine who we are, what we are going to become and how we feel about ourselves. We allow outside influences to create our worlds for us. We allow them to tell us what we are good enough to be. By allowing those outside influences more of a say in our lives than us we feel lost, helpless and alone. I believe the reason we feel that way is because by following others perceptions and paths for us we actually lose ourselves. We no longer can recognize ourselves.
Think about it this way...When a child of a young age is kidnapped they can be convinced, after time and effort, that they are and always have been a completely different person than who they were born. Their name can be changed, their whole life altered and they will adjust and adapt to that new life story because they believe it to be true.
I believe that happens with all of us. We are told certain things and if we are told them long enough, and we don't have anyone there to reaffirm our real identity, we assume the identity we are given by the outside world. I believe that we become so wrapped up in what we believe we are suppose to be, because we put more faith and belief in what others say. We give ourselves to outside influences, we allow these outside influences to mold us into what they believe we should be because if they mold us then they'll like us because they made us..... I hope that makes sense.
That is how we live outside in. We allow others to show us who we are. The thing is, others have no idea who we are. They cannot see our hearts or our souls. They cannot truly know the potential we hold. The only person who can bring the true us out is ourselves. The way we can bring the true us to the world in to live the opposite of what most of us were taught. We need to live from the inside out. We need to listen to our hearts, follow our hearts and be courageous in knowing that we are being the person we are meant to be. We need to accept ourselves as we are. We need to allow the amazing power we hold within us to shine into the world.
I believe each of us is here for a reason. We each bring something to the table, we only need to find out what that gift is. We need stop listening to what others tell us and start listening to our hearts. Inside our hearts is our answer, our true self, our gift we are meant to provide the world.
So I encourage you all to listen to your heart. Stop pretending to be someone you are not, especially if being that person is hurting you inside. Forgive yourself and others for being mistaken about who you are. I don't believe people intentionally hold others down, I believe that others try and help even if their help ends up being misguided and leads you off of your path. So be kind, even to the ones who have hurt you most. Understand that they could not truly see who you are.
Each of us has the opportunity to make this life incredible. Each of us has something important to bring to the table of life, we need only find out what that is.
I wish all of you the best of luck in finding yourself, finding your purpose and living the path of your heart. It's never to late.
Forgive yourself and others. Move on and be who you are meant to be. Shine! Live from the inside out and you will be amazed at how amazing you truly are. You will feel your connection with God and others and you will find your happiness. I wish you peace.
Living Inspired,
Micah
Why do we hide within ourselves? This world we live in is meant to be lived, in my opinion, from the inside out. A ton of us seem to live from the outside in. We take the ideas, perceptions, pain, rejection we receive in the outside world and we bring it inside of ourselves. We allow the world to determine who we are, what we are going to become and how we feel about ourselves. We allow outside influences to create our worlds for us. We allow them to tell us what we are good enough to be. By allowing those outside influences more of a say in our lives than us we feel lost, helpless and alone. I believe the reason we feel that way is because by following others perceptions and paths for us we actually lose ourselves. We no longer can recognize ourselves.
Think about it this way...When a child of a young age is kidnapped they can be convinced, after time and effort, that they are and always have been a completely different person than who they were born. Their name can be changed, their whole life altered and they will adjust and adapt to that new life story because they believe it to be true.
I believe that happens with all of us. We are told certain things and if we are told them long enough, and we don't have anyone there to reaffirm our real identity, we assume the identity we are given by the outside world. I believe that we become so wrapped up in what we believe we are suppose to be, because we put more faith and belief in what others say. We give ourselves to outside influences, we allow these outside influences to mold us into what they believe we should be because if they mold us then they'll like us because they made us..... I hope that makes sense.
That is how we live outside in. We allow others to show us who we are. The thing is, others have no idea who we are. They cannot see our hearts or our souls. They cannot truly know the potential we hold. The only person who can bring the true us out is ourselves. The way we can bring the true us to the world in to live the opposite of what most of us were taught. We need to live from the inside out. We need to listen to our hearts, follow our hearts and be courageous in knowing that we are being the person we are meant to be. We need to accept ourselves as we are. We need to allow the amazing power we hold within us to shine into the world.
I believe each of us is here for a reason. We each bring something to the table, we only need to find out what that gift is. We need stop listening to what others tell us and start listening to our hearts. Inside our hearts is our answer, our true self, our gift we are meant to provide the world.
So I encourage you all to listen to your heart. Stop pretending to be someone you are not, especially if being that person is hurting you inside. Forgive yourself and others for being mistaken about who you are. I don't believe people intentionally hold others down, I believe that others try and help even if their help ends up being misguided and leads you off of your path. So be kind, even to the ones who have hurt you most. Understand that they could not truly see who you are.
Each of us has the opportunity to make this life incredible. Each of us has something important to bring to the table of life, we need only find out what that is.
I wish all of you the best of luck in finding yourself, finding your purpose and living the path of your heart. It's never to late.
Forgive yourself and others. Move on and be who you are meant to be. Shine! Live from the inside out and you will be amazed at how amazing you truly are. You will feel your connection with God and others and you will find your happiness. I wish you peace.
Living Inspired,
Micah
Monday, June 29, 2009
Lift Me Up: Bold and Happy
I took another step in the recreation of me. I had my hair done yesterday. I have been wanting a change for a long time and I am so pleased with the outcome. It looks like fire, it reminds me of a pheonix rising from the ashes. I love it!!!!
This new look has inspired me to work towards that person I know I have inside of me. That confident woman who is powerful, strong, sexy and fun loving.
I now have 2 days of running under my belt. I feel inspired to make the right choices that will lead me to the Micah I was meant to be!
Living Inspired,
Micah
This new look has inspired me to work towards that person I know I have inside of me. That confident woman who is powerful, strong, sexy and fun loving.
I now have 2 days of running under my belt. I feel inspired to make the right choices that will lead me to the Micah I was meant to be!
Living Inspired,
Micah
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
In the Green
In the green I hold you. I lay in your arms and listen to your heart beat.
In the green I see you, I trace your eyebrows with my finger, memorizing the contours of your face
In the green I breathe you in. I wrap myself in the peace being with you offers.
How I long to be near you again. I am no longer trapped by the evil voices within my head, they were what held me back from truly showing you love. The fear that you would not or did not love me back was unbearable! I was petrified to admit how much I completely adored you. I was afraid you did not love me back. I know that I never really gave you a chance to love me, I believe you did though.
We were together for a very short time but the love I still feel for you to this day is strong. I loved the peace I felt in your arms. I loved the way we could be together without having to do anything at all. I remember coloring in your tattoos while you would sit there and strum your guitar.
I loved your lips and smile, you always had a devilish grin, it lit my heart ablaze!
You were my true love. I do not hold anger or pain when I think of our time together. All I feel is love, all I'll ever allow myself to feel for you is love. There is no reason to focus on the pain, the love is what mattered, it still does.
So on that rare occasion that I see you in my dreams I cherish every single breathe you take near me. I cherish everything about you.
Until I see you again in the green.......
In the green I see you, I trace your eyebrows with my finger, memorizing the contours of your face
In the green I breathe you in. I wrap myself in the peace being with you offers.
How I long to be near you again. I am no longer trapped by the evil voices within my head, they were what held me back from truly showing you love. The fear that you would not or did not love me back was unbearable! I was petrified to admit how much I completely adored you. I was afraid you did not love me back. I know that I never really gave you a chance to love me, I believe you did though.
We were together for a very short time but the love I still feel for you to this day is strong. I loved the peace I felt in your arms. I loved the way we could be together without having to do anything at all. I remember coloring in your tattoos while you would sit there and strum your guitar.
I loved your lips and smile, you always had a devilish grin, it lit my heart ablaze!
You were my true love. I do not hold anger or pain when I think of our time together. All I feel is love, all I'll ever allow myself to feel for you is love. There is no reason to focus on the pain, the love is what mattered, it still does.
So on that rare occasion that I see you in my dreams I cherish every single breathe you take near me. I cherish everything about you.
Until I see you again in the green.......
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Seriously!?! Rant!
I'm at home watching the Seven Signs of the Apocalypse from the History Channel. I used to love these type of shows, they give scientific proof of all of the horrible things that could happen to us in this life should the Apocalypse come. There are 2 reasons this show is annoying me. First, they blame God for all of these horrible things. Second, they focus on the negatives. So I just want to go off a bit.........
I understand that of course they are going to portray all of these events as scary as they can be. It makes for better TV. It irritates me that these shows are out there. They seem like constructed evil, waiting to be planted it into people's head and if enough people fear it it will come about. They we all sit there and go, 'Oh my Josh, they said this was going to happen'.
They are basing all of this on Revelations in the Bible. I first read Revelations on New Years Eve 1999, I have to admit, it is a very scary possibility. That whole book is straight fear. It's the base of a thousand movies and books. We hold ourselves in fear of everything bad that could happen. We go see movies, watch TV shows and read books about how all of us are going to die, how the world is going to end and how we all will suffer. Think about that for a minute.....why????
Why are we obbessed with destroying ourselves? We are constantly finding out another way our world will end. Why do we never look at the fact that with all of these senarios that could end our lives, we still live. Why not look at the fact that we could be obliterated at anytime by Earthquakes, Volcano's, Tsunamis or other natural disasters and be thankful that we are here. Instead of planning how to handle one of these 'if this happens' situations why don't we put a greater focus on how far we have come. How lucky we are everyday that an asteroid didn't hit us and Our Sun didn't burn out. Why aren't we thankful for the blessings in life? Why do we as a people insist on focusing on possible impending doom?
I also wonder why we put all of the blame for everything on God? We say he is vengeful and will smite us. Why? The God I am part of is not a spiteful God. The God of creation is just that, God of creation.
I feel like Man has ruined God a bit. For instance most claim 'he' when they talk about God. That is so limiting, God is not a man, God is power, love and abundance God is not a 'he' God just is. I understand that God was given 'he' as an indenity, probably to make him more relatable to man, but God is not man. God is simple. God is everything and when you begin to realize that God is the power and force and connection that holds everything together then there is peace. When you stop looking at God like this old man up in the heavens getting pissed off at us for our improper behavior, and realize God does not hold form, then you can begin feel the presence of God within yourself. By making God like man we have limited God. GOd has been portrayed as he has because Man is better at accpeting what he knows. Man understands how he acts when he is hurt angry and people do not listen to him, that is why God is explained that way.
When I say God is simple I mean what I say. God is not complicated. God does not get his feelings hurt or get angry because people don't believe in him, God is not a him. God is a power, a force, God is life. God is the power and life that we all come from. It is that simple. God does not lack, Man lacks. Man lacks the understanding of the simplicity of God. We as Man over complicate everything, we put limits upon ourselves and our power. We put limits upon what we think God is and what we think God can do.
I admit I used to be one of those people who would watch these shows and be scared out of my mind. I watched these type of shows because I wanted to be 'prepared' for what may come. Now I see things differently. I don't see these shows as 'preparing' one for what may come, I see it more as a scare tactic. I fear that if everyone believes these things will come about we will actually create the scenarios unintentionally.
The good thing I have to say is at least these type of shows are starting to show a glimmer of hope that we do have the power to change our path. It's just sad that they only mention that glimmer of hope after 2 hours of negative information.
I understand that of course they are going to portray all of these events as scary as they can be. It makes for better TV. It irritates me that these shows are out there. They seem like constructed evil, waiting to be planted it into people's head and if enough people fear it it will come about. They we all sit there and go, 'Oh my Josh, they said this was going to happen'.
They are basing all of this on Revelations in the Bible. I first read Revelations on New Years Eve 1999, I have to admit, it is a very scary possibility. That whole book is straight fear. It's the base of a thousand movies and books. We hold ourselves in fear of everything bad that could happen. We go see movies, watch TV shows and read books about how all of us are going to die, how the world is going to end and how we all will suffer. Think about that for a minute.....why????
Why are we obbessed with destroying ourselves? We are constantly finding out another way our world will end. Why do we never look at the fact that with all of these senarios that could end our lives, we still live. Why not look at the fact that we could be obliterated at anytime by Earthquakes, Volcano's, Tsunamis or other natural disasters and be thankful that we are here. Instead of planning how to handle one of these 'if this happens' situations why don't we put a greater focus on how far we have come. How lucky we are everyday that an asteroid didn't hit us and Our Sun didn't burn out. Why aren't we thankful for the blessings in life? Why do we as a people insist on focusing on possible impending doom?
I also wonder why we put all of the blame for everything on God? We say he is vengeful and will smite us. Why? The God I am part of is not a spiteful God. The God of creation is just that, God of creation.
I feel like Man has ruined God a bit. For instance most claim 'he' when they talk about God. That is so limiting, God is not a man, God is power, love and abundance God is not a 'he' God just is. I understand that God was given 'he' as an indenity, probably to make him more relatable to man, but God is not man. God is simple. God is everything and when you begin to realize that God is the power and force and connection that holds everything together then there is peace. When you stop looking at God like this old man up in the heavens getting pissed off at us for our improper behavior, and realize God does not hold form, then you can begin feel the presence of God within yourself. By making God like man we have limited God. GOd has been portrayed as he has because Man is better at accpeting what he knows. Man understands how he acts when he is hurt angry and people do not listen to him, that is why God is explained that way.
When I say God is simple I mean what I say. God is not complicated. God does not get his feelings hurt or get angry because people don't believe in him, God is not a him. God is a power, a force, God is life. God is the power and life that we all come from. It is that simple. God does not lack, Man lacks. Man lacks the understanding of the simplicity of God. We as Man over complicate everything, we put limits upon ourselves and our power. We put limits upon what we think God is and what we think God can do.
I admit I used to be one of those people who would watch these shows and be scared out of my mind. I watched these type of shows because I wanted to be 'prepared' for what may come. Now I see things differently. I don't see these shows as 'preparing' one for what may come, I see it more as a scare tactic. I fear that if everyone believes these things will come about we will actually create the scenarios unintentionally.
The good thing I have to say is at least these type of shows are starting to show a glimmer of hope that we do have the power to change our path. It's just sad that they only mention that glimmer of hope after 2 hours of negative information.
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